Random Thoughts

Why is is that we are taught to hide emotion? It is almost widely expected of men to hold back tears, but even women hide their faces when they cry. A great example of this expected unemotional mask is the military. During ceremonies and such, the soldiers must hold blank faces. Emotion is seen as unprofessional and immature. It's as though emotion is seen as an element of weakness. I think it's one of the main aspects of our humanity, and should be embraced.

Though people argue that pets show emotion, it has no real grounds for argument. It's pretty much widely accepted that the animal kingdom thrives on instinct and impulse, therefore reassuring the aforementioned uniqueness that emotion plays for our humanity. Our emotions define us, yet an excess expression of such is shunned and looked down upon.

I totally suffer from the inability to show emotion. I really wish I could, but it has been hardwired into my brain. Since puberty, I can count the number of times I've cried on one hand, and I've been very emotionally detached from my family and many of my friends. Unless I'm talking about something for which I'm passionate, conversation is either monotonous or nonexistent. It's truly a terrible thing, but it is something that we lose as we develop in the economically-driven world that we live in.

I watched a video a while ago which sparked this idea. I'm certain there is much more to discuss, but I've put myself out there. I truly wish that our emotion can be seen as something beautiful and unique, but I doubt that will ever be the case. Keep dreaming, friends; keep smiling, keep crying, keep laughing, keep expressing oneself.

Can't Sleep

So, I'm pretty much only posting because Roosterteeth is down... Makes me angry that I can't waste time on my forums.

Anyway, I'm very tired. I've found it relatively difficult to sleep for the past little bit. The past couple days I didn't go to sleep until about 6am. Yeah, brutal. Tonight, however, I'm staying up all night. I'll go to bed early Sunday night in hopes of getting a wicked-thorough sleep. Let's hope.

I've tried this before, and it didn't work out so well. Mostly because I got really tired and took a nap. Unfortunately said nap turned out to go for about five hours as opposed to the original plan of one or two. This time I'm determined to stay awake all day and hit the sack around 8 or 9.

That's about it... I'm really bored, and I don't want to go to sleep. I can't go to sleep, I need to fix this... Alright, I'm going to go take a shower, then maybe read a little bit.

Vlogs and such

As I mentioned in my previous post, I've been doing video journals. Unfortunately, however, I am no longer using YouTube to host them. Check out my Vimeo page for all of my vlogs and such.

Sorry I haven't kept this thing up to date, but I really don't think there's anyone out there who actually reads this...

Peace guys,
Brandon

Hiatus

Hello dear readers, however few of you that are out there...

I'm sorry I haven't written anything recently, but I haven't had a whole lot to talk about. I think I mentioned it before, but basically I have stopped copying and pasting from my other blogs. I really only write in my Roosterteeth journal now, and do vlogs.

But this isn't going to be an update, really. I just wanted to mention that I haven't posted anything in a while, and I apologize. If you really want to stay up to date with me, check out the video I posted in the last entry, which will link you to my vlogs.

I'm going to try to post something here at least once a month. Maybe I'll start writing stories, or post video diaries once I start production on some of the films I have in the works. I guess we'll see.

Alright, later days.
-Brandon

A Vlog.

Oh, hey there. Yes, it is true; as the title suggests, I have a vlog. You can watch an introduction video I made for said vlog below.

As mentioned in the video, I've been doing these things for a couple months now, but they've mostly been for my Roosterteeth forum-mates. But, I'm certain you can still find some enjoyment; enjoy!



I'm certain you can figure out how to get to my channel from the video window... but I'll link you to it anyways. Here you go.

Alright, hope you enjoyed that, and stay tuned for more vlogs in the future. Later days, my friends.

-Brandon

Oh, hey there. It's been a while.

But honestly, I don't know if anyone actually reads this, so what does it matter...

It has been a long time since I've updated. Almost two months, wow. Well, shit has been busy. School is stressful; life is changing; brain overloaded. I went through a minor bout of depression about a month ago, which is still somewhat hanging off my back. It was a pretty brutal and scary time for me... But, I'm pretty good for the time being.

As for school, I'm just extremely unmotivated. It seems ever since midterms I've just been in the whole "fuck it" mindset. I've had mountainous amounts of work, most of which I have not done. I just haven't been able to bring myself to do it. I've been distracted, and just overall unmotivated. But, it's getting into crunch time. I'm hoping I can get back into the rhythm soon.

I've tried really hard recently to keep in contact with a lot of friends that I've lost touch with. A lot of people from highschool that I sort of regret not hanging out and talking with more often. This whole depression and change in situation seems to have caused me to regret a lot of stuff. It's like I've started to look at my life from a different angle... I'm telling you now, growing up is scary, confusing, and unexpected.

Well, I've avoided sleep for long enough. Hopefully writing this was a good remedy for my insomnia. G'night, dear readers.

-Brandon

Whoa, update.

It's been a while... I haven't really kept this thing up to date. Stuff has been busy, and therefore I have my priorities. This, though my personal blog, has very few readers. Therefore, it is not a priority.

Anyway, on to the update. I'm in university now. Moved off to York, started classes last week. Things are going well, I'm enjoying my courses thus far. Residence is definitely interesting. I haven't really met anyone, as I was not there for frosh, but I'm still enjoying myself. I'm sure things will pick up eventually...

There's not a whole lot to update, really... There is, but there's no real point in going through it. I will say, however, that I will be making a video journal this weekend. It's nore for my friends on Roosterteeth, but I'm sure it will be enjoyable for all. I will be sure to post it here once it's finished.

And with that, I'm off. Have a good weekend.

-Brandon

Chillaxin'

Wow, busy week. The good news is, I'm off until Tuesday. I have a lot of work set out for me next week, but I'm not thinking about that now. I have three relaxing days of weekend ahead of me. A weekend full of absolutely nothing.

Awesome-sauce.

I'll probably get up to some writing (I'm working on a story with an online friend of mine). Hopefully I can finish my part of the first chapter by the end of the weekend.

I also got my statement for the first year of university (tuition, and residence). It's going to cost me $11,085.60... I'm going to call my grandpa on Monday, set up a meeting to go to the bank and whatever.

Later kids, have a great weekend.
-Brandon